Monday, September 20, 2010

holyshitholyshitholyshit

i need a break.... i need a nap then i need a break........... i need cookies then i need a nap and the a break.....

school is making me so hectic!!!! i just need a little time to stop and smell the roses for two seconds but i dont see that happeneing any time soon

Sunday, September 19, 2010

buzzzzzzzzzzzz

i want to get another tattoo...
i think i want to get a cross or saint catherine

Sunday, September 5, 2010

what up 618?

so i'm officially a saluki =)
i love school
everyone else can suck it
you know who you are
you lying bitch...
yeah you.
you whore
i want to punch you in the face

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

WTF?!

People are really starting to PISS ME OFF!
I just want to move in to my new room and get away from everyone.
But at the same time it's like my problems are going to follow me to murphy...
Ima stab a hoe

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

movin' on up.....

so i may be moving out
my brother told me if he doesnt get the job he applied for in austin that i can move in with him.
at first i thought it was his idea of a sick joke
but he wasn't joking
as much as i want him to get the job in austin so i can move down there,
i would like to get out of this house asap!
i need my independence
i need to be an adult!
i still feel like i'm stuck in high school here
maybe because everyone in duquoin is still stuck in high school.......

Monday, June 21, 2010

miserable

i am absolutely miserable. i hate everything about my life right now. i have managed to get played by two different guys in the last two weeks, and one especially hurt me. i dont want to go to stupid SIU. and i REALLY dont want to live in southern illinois anymore, definately not with my parents. i seem to only have two friends that really care about me. i dont think my family gives a shit about me. and i cant find a job. i hate everything about life right now.
I only have about $345 in the bank right now and its not enough to get away from here. If i had the chance i would run far far far away from here and never come back. I wouldnt worry about what anyone thought, i would just be me and screw everyone else.
I'm thinking if i just got in my car and drove as far as i could, no one would really come looking for me. and my phone doesnt work anyway so i could just leave it at home. no one needs to be able to get a hold of me.
I really hate people using me too. it's getting so old. i dont want to be some rebound girl for every guy or something to keep them occupied while they are between girlfriends.
I'm done. I dont care how, but i'm getting the hell out of here.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

happy fathers day!

I'm hungry but I can't eat anything.... This blows. But tomorrow should be fun!! I love family get togethers :) I really can't wait to have dad open his fathers day presents. I worked really hard on them this year