Monday, June 21, 2010

miserable

i am absolutely miserable. i hate everything about my life right now. i have managed to get played by two different guys in the last two weeks, and one especially hurt me. i dont want to go to stupid SIU. and i REALLY dont want to live in southern illinois anymore, definately not with my parents. i seem to only have two friends that really care about me. i dont think my family gives a shit about me. and i cant find a job. i hate everything about life right now.
I only have about $345 in the bank right now and its not enough to get away from here. If i had the chance i would run far far far away from here and never come back. I wouldnt worry about what anyone thought, i would just be me and screw everyone else.
I'm thinking if i just got in my car and drove as far as i could, no one would really come looking for me. and my phone doesnt work anyway so i could just leave it at home. no one needs to be able to get a hold of me.
I really hate people using me too. it's getting so old. i dont want to be some rebound girl for every guy or something to keep them occupied while they are between girlfriends.
I'm done. I dont care how, but i'm getting the hell out of here.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

happy fathers day!

I'm hungry but I can't eat anything.... This blows. But tomorrow should be fun!! I love family get togethers :) I really can't wait to have dad open his fathers day presents. I worked really hard on them this year